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Saturday, December 31, 2005

2005 in Perspective

As today is the last day of 2005, and I have a little bit of time in my hands, I thought I could do a little "highlights of 2005" type of entry...

1. Dengue Fever
The year began for me at ward 16 of Changi General Hospital. I fell sick on 28/12/2004 and was warded a few days later. I always thought being in hospital would be fun... but I was really bored when I was awake. In the beginning my husband would only visist me during official visiting hours.. and it was really frustrating to see the other patients with visitors as early as when breakfast was served! So after a few days in hospital and I felt a little better one morning I called Z up at 7 or 8 in the morning and demanded that she come visit me that morning! Z and Sal dropped by about 2 hours later and I told the doctor they are my family... I really needed their company. I don't know if I have expressed my appreciation. Thanks gals...

The whole episode opened my eyes as to how much my family and friends love and care about me. It is something I had always known and taken for granted but the episode really brought home just how much.

2. The Tsunami
The irony of this is that on X'mas of 2004, my husband, brother and I had gone to Wild Wild Wet at Pasir Ris and had a fantabulous time there. There was an attraction there named the Tsunami. When they ring the warning bell, visitors would flock to the water to experience the waves... A day later a real Tsunami occured with devastating consequences. I hope thay have changed the name of that particular attraction.

Recent news on the aftermath of the Tsunami gives me great respect for the survivors. It takes a lot of courage and strength to move on. I don't know if I am that strong or will ever be.

Iryan had a close shave a few months ago. He was almost hit by a speeding car that had beat the red light. The green man was in his favour and he was about to step onto the road when some instinct (I think its an angel) made him turn his head and he managed to recoil in time. When I heard that the blood drained from my head and I spent a few hours crying thinking about how I would not be able to take it if something had happened to him (the extra hormones induced more tears than usual).

And so like I said, I have great respect for the survivors of the Tsunami.

3. The Honeymoon
It was a good trip. I enjoyed Switzerland immensely, and I want to go again!
We are already contemplating our next trip next year. I think we have more or less settled on Dubai as our destination next year. The question is, to bring baby along or not?

4. Rezeki
After I was discharged from hospital (during which time I was actually prescribed with and had to take birth control pills) we decided to try for a baby. Months went by with no baby and we became a little panicked.

We tried different techniques (oops.. censored here.. he he he...).. and I read up a great deal on the subject (the veritable bookworm as always).

It was hard to hear of friends who have heard the good news. (Iryan's friend who just got married was already blessed)... And we started questioning our ability to conceive.

Are my eyes deceiving me? That was my first thought when I saw the super-faint line on the positive window of the pregnancy test kit. That and a feeling of dubiousness on the accuracy of the test kit (which had been exposed to all kinds of weather as a result of being dragged along to Europe). I took the test at night and was not able to sleep the whole night. (On hindsight, I should have insisted that we drive up to Mustafa Centre to buy another test kit! he he he...)

But Alhamdulillah. I am very grateful for this rezeki. And I pray that the baby will be born safely and will grow up to be a good Muslim. Amin. Pray for me, guys yeah?

5.Extra hormonal
Been crying a lot. A lot. Little things can set me off. And since I am normally very practical, I know I'm being ridiculously over-sensitive. I have cried in front of my boss, in the MRT, in front of my family. Just one frown from my husband can set me off... Sigh....

Alrightiee. This entry is already longer than I expected. Just realised a lot happened this year. InsyaAllah next year, new beginnings, new baby, new lifestyle.

Happy New Year people. Enjoy the holidays!

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